I NEED TO BE WITH YOU
like breath needs taking
like stands need making
like days need breaking to crack on through in time
like feet need finding
like time needs biding
like jokes need – timing – to shine
like rays need the sunshine
and shape needs the outline
like old needs the bold and new
like sound needs the music
and grounds need the truth
it’s true I need to be with You
like parts need wholes and
like starts needs goals, and
like heart needs soul to roll the day around
like now needs then and
like how needs when and
like foes need friends… about
all alone, I’m nothing much
on my own, I’m out of touch
in the dark and out of love is no place for me
my private company’s
terms of trading bury me
no, on my own’s not where to be
and I don’t want to go solo
CLOSE ENOUGH
almost isn’t most of all
more or less is less than more
on the whole is a hollow snare
and Just about is just about nowhere
only a fool plays it so cool
that they get frozen out of the pool
this is thin ice and I am slipping out of sight
close enough isn’t close enough – it’s nowhere near it
ball park rough scores as out of touch
and I can’t handle that
near enough isn’t near enough
don’t let me miss You
don’t let me miss You
pretty much is the ugly face
of keeping touch from a distant place
round abouts cannot square up to
the sure and grounded and absolute
COLOUR ME IN
monochrome, shaped and toned
that’s the way I feel today
a sketchy mess, fed and dressed
treated to a brush with You
You highlight and put right all that’s in the frame
now nothing’s the same
You shadow and you lift me
change me with each touch you give me
You draw me in
my life would still be empty if you had not filled me
You are where I begin
You colour me in
indistinct to in the pink
rough until a stroke of brilliance
this is how You turn me round
pallid cold to palette bold
yes you give perspective to the state I’m in
you change everything
black and white. hit with light
shades of grey, brushed away
colour’s killed the drab
dyeing’s brought me back to life
THE ONLY THING
the only thing worth dying for
is the only thing worth living for
and the only thing that both are for is You
it’s You
freeing is binding when You’re not in sight
seeing is blinding when You’re not the light
my I’s are my me’s are blurring my view, &
my self centred guidelines are tripping me too
I know where I’m nowhere, that’s understood
I’d rather not go there, cause there is no good
moved by the stillness, I’m pushed on to know
that helped by the hindrance
I’m bound where You go
THE WAY IT WORKS
sometimes I understand it
sometimes it’s how I planned it
sometimes it’s clear I have no clue
sometimes it’s ordered neatly
sometimes that’s torn completely
sometimes I’m backwards in a queue, but it’s true that
I won’t fix If I’m not broken
I won’t click if I’m not opened first
It hurts, but that’s the way it works
I will not understand if I’m not shown
I will not land If I’m not thrown there first
It hurts, but that’s the way it works
sometimes it’s fun to follow
sometimes it’s tough to swallow
sometimes the simple’s far from plain
sometimes I see the purpose
sometimes it seems a circus
sometimes I’m thrown inside your flames
Whether I’m soaring like a bird
or I’m just saw, I’m sure it’s worth it. It’s worth it.
Cause if its great here all the time
Or it just grates me, I’m still fine here. No fear.
IF ONLY
misdemeanour wants what misconception needs
but misconceptions got
something she’s not happy with
still misdemeanour takes what misconception gives
and misdemeanour makes
mistakes when she won’t follow..
the only right way to wrong foot any trouble
the only clear way to cloud out any muddle
the only clear way, the only clear way
it’s the only way to do it, the only way to go
the only way to understand the only thing to know
the only route on through it, the only A to B
if only we took it seriously
it’s the only way to live it, the only road to take
the only way to spend the day
and only choice to make
the only way to see it, the only way to be
if only we took it seriously
and misinterpret moves
where misdirection leads
as misdirection proves she really hasn’t got a clue
and now the pair are lost where they don’t want to be
and have to count the cost of not choosing to follow
making do doesn’t make any sense
why lay the ground just to sit on the fence
it’s stupid but still we do it
lip service doesn’t serve anyone
talking through will not improve what we haven’t done
we mean it or we don’t
RIGHT HERE WITH YOU
there are days that shine like rainbows
there are days I undertake with a grin
then there are days that sink like submarines
and days I have to take on the chin
there are moments in each pause
where I’m sure like blast proof doors that don’t close
then there are moments where I’m floored
like heavy weather that descends as it grows
then You fly right into
every time and issue
and I’m right here with You
there are days that fly on past so fast
I really have no clue where they’ve gone
then there are days that seem to last and last
where hours lack the powers to move on
sometimes the world spins unabated
like the cream that tastes so great in each glass
sometimes it flips till I’m frustrated
and it whips up storms that I can’t see past
ALL ABOUT YOUR LOVE
it’s not about what’s nice
it’s not about what’s cosy
not about what excites
and not about what’s rosy
it’s not about routine
it’s not about agenda
it’s not about what’s neat
it’s not about what’s clever
it’s not in how we get it down
it’s not our spin that turns our lives around
it’s all about Your love, It’s all about Your love
it’s not all fun and games
it’s not all nice and easy
it’s not all sunny days
it’s not all bright and breezy
I factor in what shuts me out
like anything that You are not about
not on our past performance
not in the ground we’ve made
not in our stayed endurance
not in the part we’ve played
not in our woeful wisdom
not in our flawed ideals
not in our strongest systems
not in our spats and spiels
not on our best intentions
not in our wisest words
that’s not the way it works
I’M GLAD YOU DO
future, past, it’s all just tense to me
the present now unwraps me
like the tide peels back the see
I make a meal with what’s not fair
sandwiched in between the here
and somewhere over there
and I know I’m not too clever
and I know I should do better
and I know I’ve let You down here more than once
when the weight of expectation
pulls like time against frustration
I know that keeping touch could never be enough
when I look at what I offer
I really don’t see why You bother
I really don’t see why You love me like you do
when it comes to where I go wrong
I really don’t know why You hold on
I really don’t know why You choose to see me through
but, God I’m glad You do
recollections wreck my thoughts today
they sweep across my memory but don’t brush themselves away
and like the jack of all spades I dig my whole with parts
where I shuffle and then fold less like the ace than fool of hearts
and I know I’m part way through it
and I know that there’s more to it
but I wish I did not let You down this much
when the pause of intermission doubles up as indecision
I know that keeping touch can never be enough
HOW AND WHO
You are closer than my skin
are further than I’ve been
far nearer than what I’m in
You’re the difference that won’t change
the mover that remains
the carrier who stays here
You’re the now that lasts forever
You’re the word that holds together
You’re the explanation every time
You’re the reason, You’re the guide
You’re the answer, You decide
the how and who and when and where and why
You are more than what confounds me
more than what surrounds me
boss of all things far and near
You’re in every moment I’m in
and every turn that time brings
is straight ahead when you steer
no move I ever make could ever make You move
ALL FALL DOWN
I know I tuck myself away
where only a part of who I am sees light of day
the other half of me is locked into a safe place
where I’m concealing, and not revealing.
every single part of me that tries
to be a winner without really picking sides
my self defence has got me tied and has denied me
the chance to live to give to You, so
let it all fall down
blow it open
all fall down
let the hope in
all fall down
come in and fix what’s broken here
get it clear, wipe the tears
and then chase the fear away
I tear my life up with divides
and different parts of me camp out on different sides
any way I look at it I hide and though I’ve tried to
let my guard down, it’s hard now
I don’t know what I do this for
I hide too much behind these doors
I don’t want to hide it anymore
